Tuesday, 21 November 2017

In My Alternative Scenarios

In My Alternative Scenario

What if I'm As, was An Acronym?
Not A 'Her', the Reflection of 'Him'

In My Alternative Scenarios,
You would never know the places I go!

If the time you found out, 
was clouded by doubt,
Which process would you have chose, 
to learn of my clothes?

You would much rather act Totally Blind,
to the new route now, my path does wind

Change Your Outlook, 
Playing Ostrich now suits,
better than hearing about my high heel boots,

They can be treacherous Indeed,
When a Nervous Wreck,
Far more likely then, to Break My Neck,

Despite life's teachings, Make Each other Aware,
When on Long Journeys, When we get there

A Voyage to Manchester In the Outside Lane
on my way to discover, “Was I going Insane?”

Had been stuck in traffic, M6's Never Great
Things start to improve, I accelerate

Again I reach 70, Road's suddenly Rough
Tyre Goes BANG, Next Seconds are TOUGH!

A Much Safer Experience had I been Bolder,
To handle the next bit, 
when I head... hard shoulder

The Lorries And Cars felt rather quite near,
but my thoughts were also along way from here

it's often told, how life flashes past you
I was thinking, I will never get to...

Explain to others, my Face in the dirt
Far more concerned, “I am wearing a skirt”

4 days ahead of me, a time to Play Girl
Don't think I will make it, If my Car does now whirl

So I hold the wheel tight, head through the gap
wish I could concentrate, I'm looking at Lap

Are these my final moments? To be Spent This Way
more concerned with “What would they Say?

Next of Kin, are called to my sin
this point the rhyme is imagining

Fading Mind Listens for YOU “What Waste?”
Your Far more concerned with my Clothing taste

You arrive to the scene, It's “Pay Your respects”
the sight that greets you, is not as you expect

Pushing aside, Mind Fog as Police Talk
Telling The Story “Why I'm Lined by the Chalk'

Cold and Still Where I should not be,
First Aid Useless, Clothes Strewn about Me

What if that's the way, Secret was Decode,
Deciphered by my body lying in road?

I miss him now he's gone away”
Why did he never feel he could say”

When You should be grieving, you've increased shock
asking yourself, “Is this a Girl with a Cock”

Sick? Me? A Rhyme to Far?
Yet Almost a True Story of Me in My Car

Thanking Karma, I'm Safe and Sound
Biggest Issues? How I bring You around!

to this day, I laugh, I swear that I changed
Skirt to my trousers as I crossed those 3 lanes

I didn't, I know that, I'm lucky to tell
the story nearly, 'Road to Hell'

I sat and I waited, excuses searched for
should I really need them for Make-Up I wore

Recovery Man Cool, Car on the back
once tyre replaced, soon back on track

And Sparkle Arrived, Safely, I too!
4 Days of Sami, A break from the Stu

Who's life at times is far too stressed
A little relief, When Sami is Dressed

And now your concerned by Judgement and Jibes
Would you prefer you had learned through somebody's bribes?

Conversations on the NET, do reach wide
Screen Captures, make it harder to hide,

“Truly Is Power” Creating Wealth
In the hands of others, not concerned for our Health

Large sums of money, one of us must pay
Or somebody else will 'Out' How I Play

Show You a Picture, It's me in a Dress
How much is it worth, Under Duress?

Would you Pay More to Protect ME, or your own Embarrassment?
Am I expected to compensate for All that you've spent?

Or Alone at HOME, The Music is Blasting
I'm using Make-Up and Clothes, 
A New Me in Casting

A change in Your Schedule, 
“Stu should be In!”
A quick Cup of Tea and Waggle of Chin

Car's on the drive, I better act quick
How will I hide this, Time to Panic

Grabbing the Wipes, Cleaning my Face,
A Blur of Movement, Amazing Pace
I reach the Top of The Wooden Hill,
Take a Deep Breath, A Sudden Chill

Thinking of the Lie,
 to Sell to You
Sorry for delay, 
was just on the loo”

But as I glance down, there where I froze
I look at Toe Nails, A Nice shade of Rose

FUCK, NO, What the HELL!,
Another funny story, if I had someone to tell

Into my room again, eyes do scan
cover my feet with the first thing I can

The Socks on the floor, a really fast fit
Sorry I took so long, Was Havin' A Shit!”

Still giggling to self, I rush once again,
Fly down the stairs, It was that moment when...

I miss, I slip, I'm passing through Air
At least my final moments, we manage to share!

Shame you didn't see it, though you might've been amused
Luckily this time, it just ended in Bruise

Had I been a character on a Popular Soap
Do you think would end like this? How would you Cope?

When the coroner analysis reaches conclusion,
Innocently unaware, But it was because of your Intrusion

How could you've known. It's not really you fault?
But if I didn't have to hide it, there would have been No Assault

Two Scenarios, How it could have been
Lucky for me, Funny Side's Seen

There are Darker Scenarios,
I could have gone there
Building that's Dark, 
Where People Care?

Lend an Ear, Take Your Hand,
A Play in the Darkness, but they Understand
Amongst these Players, Hiding Easy, Evilness
Lust on faces or expressionless,

Most are 'Seekers' Souls that are lost,
Search for acceptance, but what is the cost

I can tell you for some, the price is quite steep,
desperation makes them blind,
 peers would just weep

while for some it's fine, consenting games that they play
there are also many want another way

stronger of people, enjoy Social side,
but some less confident, life starts to slide

just another place where they don't fit in
not really strong enough to just take it on chin

and as loneliness grows, devoid of self-worth
they consider solutions, that end off this earth

And even those stronger capable to deal,
Are in added Danger as they Hide what is Real

So sure, Its Attention I am now seeking
A message for Others, My Heart is Now Speaking

Telling Stories, In My 'Almost' Scenes 
looking back with laughter, 
it could've been Screams

So would you Prefer that I 
Had Kept My Mouth Shut?
Such Likely Scenarios, Much Deeper Cuts!

I am not the only one been living this way, Closet Doors Hide, more than Ever Say

So if you've 'Always Suspected', 'Always Known'
Take YOUR step First, let it be shown

That you care, Your Ready,
 From You they shouldn't hide,
More difficult to do, 
once they're on the other side!

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